Can someone help me with my epilepsy?

This is going to be long so thank you all for your time. Ok I have epilepsy and had it since I was 15 and now I am 23. How I got it I dont know. Both neither side on my mom or dad have had a history of seizures. But on my mom side there are history of migraine headaches. So I honestly don’t know. What I do know is that my family keeps saying and thinks I am seizure free since my meds prevent the seizures and I should get off it. For 2 years I was living with my fiance in Arkansas and I was getting the name brand medicine Depakote ER for 5 dollars at an Christian clinic. You know how much it cost at wal-greens for my name brand 250 F-ING DOLLARS!!! Me and my fiance now live in Florida where laws here suck. Anyways what makes me mad is my mother and grandma keep saying I should “wing off” my meds. My doctors and even I have done the research told me that going off your meds you are still gambling with your life of having another seizure. My doctor told me that she knew a lady that was off her meds and and 18 years later BOOM she was on the floor. There is no cure for epilepsy. Some people come off the meds and are cure. Some come off and have them again. Me I am not going to take the gamble. If I come off my meds this is what is going to happen.

A. I need to be watched under close supervision
B. I cant drive a car, say I was to wreck and kill someone
C. I could not work, say I was to have one at work (I have seem them and people freak out)
D. I could die if I hit my head wrong duhhhh!!!!

So now not only is $250 dollars coming out my wallets every month to these stupid pharmacists. But my doctor tells me that I need to plan sometime in the near future to wing off my meds. The reason why is because it can damage my liver and cause arthritis. I for sure as hell don’t need a liver transplant cause thats fatal. Now I did talk to my doc and I did bring up the subject about medical marijuana. She to did agree with me and also told me in college that they did studies on how cannabis stimulates the brain waves and prevents seizures. She said that marijuana has great values only problem is I cant get prescribed marijuana here in Florida. This is like the last state it will be legal in. I tell my family about it and they say I dont need to smoke dope. I said it not dope its natural herb and your doing it through a vaporizer so there is no harm to your lungs. I just hate how my family wanna say wing it off when they don’t have to worrie about there health. Alot easier said than done right? Well my plan is I want to get off the meds maybe get a good job and california and move there and grow me own herbs and maybe help other people out like me. Well folks tell me if your in the same boat as me or if you got a plan. 5 stars to who answers the best

PS thanks for taking your time to read my issue

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